.Peculiar Baby. {8}

17 Months
Since my last post, we had discussed trying another IUI, we had to check on insurance and see what we had available for the remainder of the year. September and October were no-go's for another IUI due to bad timing on trips, not the end of the world. So we went ahead and did our 2nd round this month. 
And to my surprise, our insurance covers 100% of IUI's!! That made a million of my worries go away, knowing that if my body can handle it, I will keep doing the IUI's as needed.

-Fast forward-
Black Friday. Didn't go as I had hoped it to and Aunt Flow came back for another visit. DARN HER!! I really wish there was an easy blood work test or teeny tiny camera inside of me that could figure out why my eggs and Levi's swimmers won't be friends. I had 3 eggs ready for action this month and Levi had way more little active buddies ready to go this around. Sheesh...some day soon, they will make the best of friends, I can just feel it!

This whole experience has brought Levi and I so close, closer together than I think any other trial would have brought us. Heavenly Father knew we could handle this, and even tho I may or may not have been extra extra moody this past month, I know that Levi still loves me. And I love that I have something to blame my craziness on;) 

 Every month feels almost like a slap in the face when Aunt Flow comes, I can't help but just to remind myself there is always next month. And the less "pity me" I do, the faster I recover. I try my best to not let this over take my life. I have had my ups and downs with the current Doctor's I am seeing {ok lets be honest, I am switching Doctors in January and will be going to the same doctor my sister went to next year if our insurance is still as great as it is right now} I am confident that they know what they're doing and that I will have a baby when it is the right time. I just feel that this new doctor I will be seeing will be able to give me more answers, and I look forward to knowing I will be seeing the same doctor each visit instead of 1 of 3 doctors.

I was talking to one of my sisters last week, and she helped remind me that we just need to choose and be happy. Life is so much more fun that way. Sure you can get and be mad, but why? If you can choose how to feel, why not choose to be happy and just assume the best out of every situation? As hard as that can be, I am up for the challenge! 

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. Levi and I truly feel the love that we get from each of you.


  1. Emily, I am sad to hear your struggles with trying to have a baby but it's amazing to hear how strong you are and how well you are handling this trial. It's never easy to want something so bad and not be given that blessing but it will happen and I know you guys can do this! Keep up the good attitudes and stay strong! We are always thinking and praying for you!

  2. Hey don't know if you remember me but I'm a friend of Danie's and you did my toes a few months ago. I just found your blog and remember you saying something about infertility stuff and then reading this I thought I would share that there is this girl I know http://randumfancy.blogspot.com/
    that had been to a few doctors and they couldn't figure out what was wrong but switched docs and he figured it out and now she has a precious little one! Check out her blog and see if it helps or if you need her docs info!

  3. Darn it! I'm so sorry it didn't happen once again. There is nothing more disappointing. I love what you mentioned about choosing to be happy. I need to work on that very thing some days. We will keep praying for you guys!