This is my newest "Moto" for the time being. Tonight after Levi was asleep, I was sitting on the couch, waiting for the Lemon Bars I was baking for a co-worker who is doing a HUGE favor for me, looking at the dreadful Thank You cards that STILL haven't been done...(We are coming up on our 6th Month Anniv this 27th and I promised myself, Levi and my parents that they would be done before 6 Months) I was thinking about today, the last 5 1/2 months, the last 5 years, thinking about my LIFE. Who I am, where I came from, and why I am ME.
I started crying, being the worry wart that I am, stressing about tomorrow, next week and the next couple of years...So I called the lady who I adore, the lady who knows me better than anyone else knows me, and the lady who always has and always will know just the words to tell me to calm me down and look at the brighter things in life.
I haven't had a heart to heart with her since I have been married. Which is so un-like me because I told her everything before I was married. Call me crazy, and sooo the baby of the family, but I actually got home sick the first 3 months of marriage. I missed my mom! After a short 12min conversation, I felt reassured, that I could do anything, accomplish the impossible!! She told me...
"Exercise Blind Faith. Don't worry about what is going to happen in the future. Have faith that everything will work out. Work on your weaknesses. (Which I have PLENTY OF!!) Satan works the hardest on those because he knows he can get to you easiest that way....deep...getting you feeling your worst...When having doubt, think about something that makes you happy.
Levi. A Good Movie. A Primary Hymn. Your Favorite Treat.
Family. Working Out. Baking. Cleaning. Getting a Pedi.
Window Shopping. The Weekends. Friends.
Whatever your "Happy Nitch" is, go there when having a hard time. Exercise Blind Faith."
I love you Mom!!! I don't know where I would be without you in my life. You have always been there for me, no matter how stingy or selfish I have been. You have done nothing but give me unconditional love the last 23 years. I love you!!!